ANTI-SOCIAL MODE

It's one of those days wherein you don't want to mingle with friends and would just want to have some time alone. Some friends are inviting to go out, but I'm just not in the mood for social gatherings right now.


i'm gonna spend the weekends,

not really alone,

but with my son. :)

BLURRY

everything's so blurry

and

everyone's so fake

and

everybody's empty

and

everything is so messed up


• FUZZY • UNCLEAR • HAZY •

ANY TATTOO DESIGNS?

I am planning to cover the tattoo at my upper back and I don't have an idea yet what design to put. The tattoo on my upper back is just so hard to cover up. I wanted to put like a sun or a cross to cover it, but I can't see yet the exact design I want.

I wanted to have these tattoos as well...

Still thinking if I'll add another one or just cover up the one at my upper back. I wanted to darken the tatts on my lower back too. The photo below is the one that I want to cover up...

i am missing the touch of needles on my skin...
LOL!

I AM GETTING THERE

on each day that is passing

things are getting okay

i am letting myself
to miss you once in a while

so that one day
i won't have to miss you at all


getting there...

FEELING LIKE A KID AGAIN

I had a team building yesterday with my colleagues. We ended up doing it in a pool resort. Most of us don't like it though, 'coz the resort got lots of people that time. But we still had fun at the end of day. I feel like a kid whenever I am on pools. I really don't know how to swim (haha!) and it's funny how I would always want to be in the water. They forced me to try the slides, 'coz I really am afraid, I haven't done that in a long time. I eventually give in to their request, when I tried it, I had liked it but I never attempt to have a second try. LOL! It's so nice doing stuffs and feeling as if you are a kid again...

SLEEPY NOW

Got myself tired today. My eyes are slowly closing and my body just want to lay on something warm and comfortable... something called 'my bed'. The reason why I am still writing this post is to make myself overly tired. LOL! I can feel that I'm gonna have a good sleep tonight.

Nighty people!

YOU ARE THE AUTHOR

you are the author of your life

if changes are needed

make them

THE NOTEBOOK

I decided to watch a movie right after I got home from work today. Don't have any new DVD so I end up watching this...

The Notebook is an all time favorite of everyone who loves romantic movies. It's a touching and outstanding love story of two people who fell in love, got separated, brought back in each others arms, and loving each other until their very last breath. These are two people who are so in love with each other but a lot of obstacles are preventing them. I love the fact that they eventually overcome those in the saddest but most beautiful way. So nice to see this kind of love story. I still cried though I already know everything about it, but that's how girls are. LOL!

♥ my favorite lines from the movie ♥

"So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday."

"It's not about keeping your promises, and it's not about following your heart. It's about security."


"They didn't agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday... But in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other."

• click the photo above for the best scenes of the movie •

WHAT I FEEL NOW

exhausted but not tired

surrounded but lonely
sad but for no reason
wants to cry but not upset


this is how I feel now
but
i'll get rid of this soon


i hope...

I ANTICIPATE THIS...

That night, the conversation, those words... had lingered in my mind. It was that moment when I can't find the right words to say and how to voice out what I have in mind. But you already said it all. Seems that I don't need to give my thoughts anymore. The way you muttered those words, it's like I don't have a choice. That conversation was like a halt to everything. I can't complain, simply because I know where I stand. Don't worry, I am anticipating that we'll come to this point. It's just that I was relishing the counted seconds with you...

i N a's_FUNSHOTS

I just updated my photo blog. I started it last December 2009 and just have a few shots yet. It's hard to took a photo everyday to have a post on a photo blog. But I'll try to make a post at least once or twice a week. Got to have some good ideas on what could be a nice subject to shoot. Haha!


click the photo above to check on my photo blog...
much thanks!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

Happy Heart's Day!

I don't have anything special planned for that day because I basically don't have 'my valentino'. LOL! But still, I am happy for those who are so excited to celebrate it with their significant other. I don't want to be pessimistic about 'me not having a date' (I wanna burst out crying.. ahahaha.. kidding!). Honestly, looking back, I never celebrated Valentine's Day, but I do receive roses and stuffs like that, it's just that I don't think it should be valentine's day for you and your partner to have something special planned for a day. Nevertheless, it's also cute to see other people celebrating this day. Have fun with your VALENTINE!

KUNG HEI FAT CHOI
(it's also the Chinese New Year)


HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOLA
(february 14 was also my Grandma's birthday)

I HOPE NOT

By the time you realized
that what your parents had said was right...
You will have a kid
who begins to think you're wrong...
Ouch! I hope not... LOL!

HIGH SCHOOL DAYS

One of my friend in high school bring out a class picture and tag it on our Facebook accounts. It just reminds me a lot of good memories. Those were the days where our biggest worries is how to get our home works done, review for the upcoming exams, making sure we pass our projects on time, what to wear on the prom night, joining school activities, how to cut classes (LOL), where to go after school, hanging out with friends, etc.

For me, it's a chapter of your life wherein you are exploring yourself. You meet a lot of friends along the way and finding out who are the real ones. You fall in love deeply and get hurt then realized that it's not all about those sweet nothings. You are always eager and curious to know everything and seeing the lessons learned at the end.

Let's face it, we've now changed. We've all changed. All had gone to our own direction. We no longer spend time to the circle of friends that we have way back then, a lot of new people had arrived in our lives. But I have to admit that high school days were the best experiences of our lives...

• this photo was taken like 2 weeks ago with my good set of friends in high school. we get to see each other once in a blue moon. LOL! •

SUMMER IS HERE

SUMMER... marked as the warmest time of year with the longest days. Here comes the clear sky, the blazing sun and the gentle breeze of the air. Ever since I was a child, I am always excited when school ends and then summer will start. I remember those trips with my family, going to the beach or pool to lessen the heat, playing all day, not worrying about getting up early for school, sleepovers with my cousins, lazy afternoons and a lot more.

Now that I am a little old (LOL), things are different. Work is still there, so that means I have less time to enjoy the summer. But I will definitely find a way to savor my favorite time of the year. Me and my colleagues had actually went to the beach last weekend and I just love it! As I've said before on my previous post, 'beach' will be the place that I would always like to stay. When I'm there, everything was just so damn good and so far from reality.

Feeling excited as a kid again.
Looking forward for fun, fun, fun!

• writing my name in the sand •

photo above: took that pic on our way to the beach

BEACH

02.09.10

12.39pm

sound of the waves
salty taste of water
endless look at the sea
wide sky above you
birds flying
shells on the shore
feeling the heat of the sun
wind that blows your hair
sands between your toes
silence around

got so many reasons to be in love with the beach

• under the sun is my fave •

LET ME...

02.07.10

6.43am



before i sleep...

i will let myself believe that you are mine
and bring that thought in my dreams
where no one will contend

please just let me
only this time
'coz i know when i woke up

you will never be

HELLOOOOOOO

Good bye work!

Hellooooooooooooooo weekend!

IT SHOULDN'T BE

thinking of someone
that I shouldn't be

CAN'T SLEEP!

I hate days like this... You feel tired and restless but sleeping is just so impossible. I wonder why? Yesterday was the same scenario, I can't sleep either. When I forced myself to bed, it only makes me harder to have a sleep. I am really hating it...

wishing to have a good sleep like this, NOW...

TRY THIS...

enter this on to your keyboard while on Facebook:


up
up
down
down
left
right
left
right
b
a
enter
then click on the screen


look what happens, this is cute...

HANGOVER

Last Sunday was my colleague's post birthday celebration. The night was so much fun that we ended it around 3am. Alcohol was all over the place and I did drink a lot, I am not denying. I thought I was just okay, not until I woke up the next day...

headache
+
burning stomach
+
a mouth that tastes like crap
=
major hangover

Note: I am just a social drinker and not an alcoholic... LOL!

• the photo was taken that night •