NOTHING STAYS

Not everything you have stays forever. But there are things you would be glad to fight for, just so you can have them longer.

REPLAY

Wish I could go back in time 

and replay some of the moments I miss best.

I LOVE YOU

A warning.
An apology.
An interruption.
A plea for attention.
An objection.
An excuse.
A justification.
A reminder.
A trap.
A blessing.
A disguise.
A revelation.
A way of saying nothing.
A way of summarizing everything.
A surrender.
An opening.
An end.

MIXED EMOTIONS

I hate it when you have something to be sad about, something to be happy about,  something to be mad about and something to be excited about. I have no clue which emotion I should feel. Too many emotions, I don't know what to do!  

*SIGH*

It's one of those days again. Or week? Been having this sh*t since Monday. Arghhhhhh! Can't wait for this week to end.

UNKEPT PROMISES

She sits in the corner,

singing herself to sleep.

Wrapped in all the promises,

that no one seems to keep.

I'M NOT OKAY

It's one of those days again. I don't know how to describe exactly how I feel but one thing is certain - I am not okay. I hope that this will eventually pass. It's hard to contain this kind of disturbance by myself but I also don't want to affect the people around me by this desolation. People who knew me so well can sense if something's not right, they would normally asks "What's wrong? Any problem?". Me, being the selfless person would normally wear a smile and will say "Nothing, I'm okay." They would ask for the second time and I would crack a joke as to avoid the conversation. I'm that type of person, I don't want to bother other people by my dilemmas. 

I'm not a quitter, I have a very long patience, I should say. That's why I guess friends often tell that they adore the fighter in me. But there also comes a point that you just want to give up, pack up your things, leave, find somewhere new, start over and hope for the best. There were also times that I felt like failing is the only option. But I remind myself that it would not help me in any other way. Then I wait till that spur of low spirit comes off.

They might see a strong person in me but part of me still wants to weep. I'm tired of being told I'm strong and letting them believe that I am. For once, I would like to be as weak as I feel.....

STUPID ME!

Don't make me wait, 

just because you know I will.

Or seems that I need to be awake from a dream,

accept the reality and learn to admit

that you will never be mine.

I knew things would not work out.

It's just me and my stupidness again!

*O U C H*

PRAYERS FOR JAPAN

It's all in the news these days. Japan was hit by a strong earthquake that triggers a tsunami alert. They said that earthquake is like an everyday thing in Japan, and having this kind of earthquake happens every 20 years. I am not so sure if that is a fact. But for all the victims of this tragedy, my prayers are with them. Hoping and praying for a fast recovery to Japan and it's countrymen. 

  

IT'S NOT A MISTAKE, IT'S A CHOICE

You can never make the same mistake twice.

Because the second time you make it,

it's not a mistake, it's a choice!

Whenever a wrong move has happened to our life for the second time, we sometimes convince ourselves that it was an honest mistake. Or we tell ourselves that we didn't know it'll end up that way again and will suddenly felt like we are a victim of circumstances. The truth is, we are just trying to give justice to the wrong acts that we decided to do again. Maybe of guilt? I am not sure, but the saying above is somehow true. Once you did the same mistake, that's because it's your choice!

TAKE A DEEP BREATH

There's just a lot on my plate lately and there were times I felt that it's more of what I can take. I'm the type of person who don't give up easily. Lately, I am wondering if that trait really helps me now. I am literally getting tired and sick of all these. But the doer in me still stands out. When everything that surrounds me seems like a dilemma, I just take a deep breath to calm my mind. I hope this works for long.

SICK OF BEING SICK!

Been sick for almost a week now. My condition does not get any better. Simply because I cannot take a full rest. Still reporting to work coz I need to, a lot of reports to do. Ever felt like dragging yourself to work? That's the exact feeling I had. I hope I get well sooooooooon!

YOU WILL BE MISSED!

Ina - Zab - Djhaye - Che

It was Djhaye's last day at our company yesterday. He resigned and will start working for another company this week. So we spent the entire afternoon chit chatting and having fun. What we did yesterday was totally non-sense, we just wanted to spent quality time with each other. =)

It's sad 'coz we won't get to see him everyday. Though I know that we'd still be able to find time to catch up with each other's lives. But it's still much okay if we could see each other everyday, take our breaks together, coffee after work and a lot more. This time around, we won't be able to spend much time with him. I am sure he'll met new friends at his new work and would probably have less time for the old friends. That thought makes us sad. I still wish him all the luck. And I am so sure that we won't forget each other and will find time to bond again. 

You will be missed!

NOT TODAY...

=( 

can't wait for tomorrow!

so that this feeling will pass..

RAINY SUMMER =(

It says on news that it will be a rainy summer here in the Philippines for this year. According to the Philippine Atmospheric, Geophysical and Astronomical Services Administration (PAGASA), large parts of the country, would have a wet summer characterized by above-normal rainfall in March, April and May. Our country will be experiencing La Nina in the next 4 months.

That sucks! Summer is my favorite time of the year. I love how the sun becomes so hot during this season. I know some people hate it but I really like summer days. Now that it's only January, we are already experiencing rain everyday on a late afternoon and that makes me real sad. =(

SENTIMENTAL

unknown reasons are making me sentimental today... =(

TIRED?

Feeling sad.. Or maybe I am just too tired.. 

*SIGH*

It's the sudden change of emotions again..

VACATION MODE

Everyone seems like in a vacation mode, since holidays will already be by next week. I envy them! Because back at work, we don't have a holiday vacation. It'll be my 2nd year spending Christmas at work. Kinda sad.


I'll just try to do what the shirt above says. Haha!

I NEED TO BE...

 

I need to be Blair Waldorf before I can be Chuck Bass' girlfriend.

~Blair Waldorf, Gossip Girl

Was not really giving much attention about the series last night, I just have the TV turned on while waiting for a friend and Gossip Girl is the one showing at that time. But this dialogue caught my attention and it lingers in my mind. Such a beautiful verse, it comes with so much meaning. It's like feeling the love for oneself and being afraid to let go of the person who is important and special to you.

GOODBYE WEEKEND

 

Goodbye weekend!

This is gonna be my last.

Gotta work on weekends starting next week.

I'm dead! LOL.

Will miss late night fun during weekends. =(

SIMPLE AS THAT!

 

simple as that!