Monday, August 31, 2009


Isn't sad when you are so bonded and so comfortable with each and one's company but you guys just suddenly have to part ways? That's what I felt when I decided to quit my job last 3 weeks ago. The rest of my colleagues have resigned too and suddenly we realized that all of us had gone to different paths. We tried to applied for the same company so that we can all still be together. But it just doesn't work like that. We really have to decide and make decisions for our own selves.

So now we all have to move on and take the paths that we chose. These people become my second family that's why I will surely miss them. I'm sure we are still going to hang out every now and then, partying all night and drink till we drop. I terribly miss those days. Just wanna think of the positive side, we are all parting to have and celebrate everyone's growth.


It's 3:04 am when I started writing this. And as always, I am making myself so tired and restless so I can have a good sleep. It may sound pathetic, but yes, I am making myself restless in order for me to sleep.

Insomniac? I would love to believe that. But I guess I'm looking for something, just like a child looking for her favorite pillow before going to bed. I really don't have a clue what I'm looking for. I just felt that each night when I close my eyes, something's missing...


Sticky fingers, dirty face,
Rugs and pillows out of place...

Cars and trucks here and there,
Playing cowboys without a care...

Gold and silver I have none,
But worth millions is my son...

Sunday, August 30, 2009


As defined, Karma is a Sanskrit word that means "action." Karma has commonly been considered a punishment for past bad actions, but karma is neither judge nor jury. Rather, it is simply the universal law of cause and effect that says every thought, word and act carries energy into the world and affects our present reality.

I am a believer of this... What goes around comes around... Karma kicks us all in the butt at the end of the day... lol...


Isolated... Got lots of people around me but can't help this feeling of being alone now. I guess, I'm missing something else. Something that can help me overcome this isolation... :(

Saturday, August 29, 2009


Sometimes those who promise to stay here with us are the ones who actually find it easy to leave us…

Same is true with people who say they genuinely love us, but then are constantly taking us for granted…

How sweet,,,
their lies are…


Looking back, I never thought life would be so kind to me. When I reminisce the days of my youth, I must admit that I do things which are not likely to do for a young girl. I am stubborn , yes!! I am open in saying that a lot of times that I disobeyed my parents, and there are the countless headaches and heartaches that I had given to them. But in spite of all that, they still never fail to show the love and care that they have for me. I must say I’m one heck of a lucky girl, who happened to have good and wonderful parents…

Now that I’m also a parent, I realized the things that I’ve caused to my parents. I’m afraid that life would give me so many hardships in raising my son. But still, i am blessed with a very loving child. There are times that I looked to this very important person in my life, and I just say a silent prayer to God, thanking Him for giving my son to me. No one can ever take his place in my heart. I love my son so much. He is my joy, my wealth, my inspiration, my protector, my savior, MY EVERYTHING!!!


i have sought love first

because it brings ecstasy…

“ecstasy so great”

that I would often sacrificed

the best of me

for a few hours of this joy…


When you hear the word love, what exactly comes to your mind? Is it the feeling of joy when you are with your special someone? Or the electricity you get when you hold hands and kissed each other? Is it when a sight of a person makes your heart skip a beat? Or is true that love conquers all? So many questions, but few can really answer what love is to them.

I myself believe in love. But then it’s really hard to define the word love, because I know each of us has our own beliefs regarding this matter. I believe that everyday we experienced love in our lives, we are just not aware how, when and where? But I know that love is everywhere and it happens any time for a particular reason.

As for me, love is the most essential of human behaviors. You may have the best of health, the most comfortable homes, the most impressive of bank balances, but without love, life is empty. Love in a relationship is when both parties feel so secure, so accepted and so safe that they can share their innermost feelings, dreams, failures and successes without a doubt. Love is not defined by length of time but rather by quality of caring. It is the unconditional acceptance of another person, a give and take, two-way relationship founded in respect for one another.

It’s up to us to give love a chance. There is nothing greater in life than loving another and being loved in return for loving is the greatest of experiences. I guess you will never really know the essence of love until you yourself witness the miracle of love...


Problems are part of one’s journey towards success. It maybe true, but how strong would you be to conquer them? Every person has their own problems in life, some take it seriously, some just take it as a game, some take it as a test, while some simply take it AS IT IS!!! I’m the type of person that take problem as it is. It’s painful when you are in a situation that you don’t know what to do. But then, what can I do? I accept whatever it is that comes my way. I guess I’m pretty damn good in handling my problems. I usually don’t share it with other people, instead I keep it to myself. I don’t often cry out my problems to others, it’s better that I solve it by myself. I don’t know, maybe I just don’t want other people to be bothered by it. I’ve realized that life would not be complete if there are no problems. It certainly makes a person strong and experienced through all of it.