ANY TATTOO DESIGNS?

I am planning to cover the tattoo at my upper back and I don't have an idea yet what design to put. The tattoo on my upper back is just so hard to cover up. I wanted to put like a sun or a cross to cover it, but I can't see yet the exact design I want.

I wanted to have these tattoos as well...

Still thinking if I'll add another one or just cover up the one at my upper back. I wanted to darken the tatts on my lower back too. The photo below is the one that I want to cover up...

i am missing the touch of needles on my skin...
LOL!

I AM GETTING THERE

on each day that is passing

things are getting okay

i am letting myself
to miss you once in a while

so that one day
i won't have to miss you at all


getting there...

FEELING LIKE A KID AGAIN

I had a team building yesterday with my colleagues. We ended up doing it in a pool resort. Most of us don't like it though, 'coz the resort got lots of people that time. But we still had fun at the end of day. I feel like a kid whenever I am on pools. I really don't know how to swim (haha!) and it's funny how I would always want to be in the water. They forced me to try the slides, 'coz I really am afraid, I haven't done that in a long time. I eventually give in to their request, when I tried it, I had liked it but I never attempt to have a second try. LOL! It's so nice doing stuffs and feeling as if you are a kid again...

SLEEPY NOW

Got myself tired today. My eyes are slowly closing and my body just want to lay on something warm and comfortable... something called 'my bed'. The reason why I am still writing this post is to make myself overly tired. LOL! I can feel that I'm gonna have a good sleep tonight.

Nighty people!

YOU ARE THE AUTHOR

you are the author of your life

if changes are needed

make them

THE NOTEBOOK

I decided to watch a movie right after I got home from work today. Don't have any new DVD so I end up watching this...

The Notebook is an all time favorite of everyone who loves romantic movies. It's a touching and outstanding love story of two people who fell in love, got separated, brought back in each others arms, and loving each other until their very last breath. These are two people who are so in love with each other but a lot of obstacles are preventing them. I love the fact that they eventually overcome those in the saddest but most beautiful way. So nice to see this kind of love story. I still cried though I already know everything about it, but that's how girls are. LOL!

♥ my favorite lines from the movie ♥

"So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday."

"It's not about keeping your promises, and it's not about following your heart. It's about security."


"They didn't agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday... But in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other."

• click the photo above for the best scenes of the movie •

WHAT I FEEL NOW

exhausted but not tired

surrounded but lonely
sad but for no reason
wants to cry but not upset


this is how I feel now
but
i'll get rid of this soon


i hope...

I ANTICIPATE THIS...

That night, the conversation, those words... had lingered in my mind. It was that moment when I can't find the right words to say and how to voice out what I have in mind. But you already said it all. Seems that I don't need to give my thoughts anymore. The way you muttered those words, it's like I don't have a choice. That conversation was like a halt to everything. I can't complain, simply because I know where I stand. Don't worry, I am anticipating that we'll come to this point. It's just that I was relishing the counted seconds with you...

i N a's_FUNSHOTS

I just updated my photo blog. I started it last December 2009 and just have a few shots yet. It's hard to took a photo everyday to have a post on a photo blog. But I'll try to make a post at least once or twice a week. Got to have some good ideas on what could be a nice subject to shoot. Haha!


click the photo above to check on my photo blog...
much thanks!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

Happy Heart's Day!

I don't have anything special planned for that day because I basically don't have 'my valentino'. LOL! But still, I am happy for those who are so excited to celebrate it with their significant other. I don't want to be pessimistic about 'me not having a date' (I wanna burst out crying.. ahahaha.. kidding!). Honestly, looking back, I never celebrated Valentine's Day, but I do receive roses and stuffs like that, it's just that I don't think it should be valentine's day for you and your partner to have something special planned for a day. Nevertheless, it's also cute to see other people celebrating this day. Have fun with your VALENTINE!

KUNG HEI FAT CHOI
(it's also the Chinese New Year)


HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOLA
(february 14 was also my Grandma's birthday)

I HOPE NOT

By the time you realized
that what your parents had said was right...
You will have a kid
who begins to think you're wrong...
Ouch! I hope not... LOL!

HIGH SCHOOL DAYS

One of my friend in high school bring out a class picture and tag it on our Facebook accounts. It just reminds me a lot of good memories. Those were the days where our biggest worries is how to get our home works done, review for the upcoming exams, making sure we pass our projects on time, what to wear on the prom night, joining school activities, how to cut classes (LOL), where to go after school, hanging out with friends, etc.

For me, it's a chapter of your life wherein you are exploring yourself. You meet a lot of friends along the way and finding out who are the real ones. You fall in love deeply and get hurt then realized that it's not all about those sweet nothings. You are always eager and curious to know everything and seeing the lessons learned at the end.

Let's face it, we've now changed. We've all changed. All had gone to our own direction. We no longer spend time to the circle of friends that we have way back then, a lot of new people had arrived in our lives. But I have to admit that high school days were the best experiences of our lives...

• this photo was taken like 2 weeks ago with my good set of friends in high school. we get to see each other once in a blue moon. LOL! •

SUMMER IS HERE

SUMMER... marked as the warmest time of year with the longest days. Here comes the clear sky, the blazing sun and the gentle breeze of the air. Ever since I was a child, I am always excited when school ends and then summer will start. I remember those trips with my family, going to the beach or pool to lessen the heat, playing all day, not worrying about getting up early for school, sleepovers with my cousins, lazy afternoons and a lot more.

Now that I am a little old (LOL), things are different. Work is still there, so that means I have less time to enjoy the summer. But I will definitely find a way to savor my favorite time of the year. Me and my colleagues had actually went to the beach last weekend and I just love it! As I've said before on my previous post, 'beach' will be the place that I would always like to stay. When I'm there, everything was just so damn good and so far from reality.

Feeling excited as a kid again.
Looking forward for fun, fun, fun!

• writing my name in the sand •

photo above: took that pic on our way to the beach

BEACH

02.09.10

12.39pm

sound of the waves
salty taste of water
endless look at the sea
wide sky above you
birds flying
shells on the shore
feeling the heat of the sun
wind that blows your hair
sands between your toes
silence around

got so many reasons to be in love with the beach

• under the sun is my fave •

LET ME...

02.07.10

6.43am



before i sleep...

i will let myself believe that you are mine
and bring that thought in my dreams
where no one will contend

please just let me
only this time
'coz i know when i woke up

you will never be

HELLOOOOOOO

Good bye work!

Hellooooooooooooooo weekend!

IT SHOULDN'T BE

thinking of someone
that I shouldn't be

CAN'T SLEEP!

I hate days like this... You feel tired and restless but sleeping is just so impossible. I wonder why? Yesterday was the same scenario, I can't sleep either. When I forced myself to bed, it only makes me harder to have a sleep. I am really hating it...

wishing to have a good sleep like this, NOW...

TRY THIS...

enter this on to your keyboard while on Facebook:


up
up
down
down
left
right
left
right
b
a
enter
then click on the screen


look what happens, this is cute...

HANGOVER

Last Sunday was my colleague's post birthday celebration. The night was so much fun that we ended it around 3am. Alcohol was all over the place and I did drink a lot, I am not denying. I thought I was just okay, not until I woke up the next day...

headache
+
burning stomach
+
a mouth that tastes like crap
=
major hangover

Note: I am just a social drinker and not an alcoholic... LOL!

• the photo was taken that night •

PASSION FOR TEACHING

I was browsing some old pictures on my computer when I saw the folder during the time that I was having my practice teaching. I missed those days. Teaching was actually my passion, I do love to be in front of a class, having a discussion and basically teaching students. I am the type of teacher that would always want the class to be fun because I don't want my students to be bored. My style of teaching is that I would make games every now and then, just so to review the things we've discussed from the past. My students were loving it, they are having so much fun and they were learning too at the same time. I can say that they can't wait for each time that we are going to review and have games again. It's one thing that motivates them to study and little did they know that they are already learning.

But when I had my practice teaching, I realized that it was not all about teaching. Being an educator requires a lot of dedication and love to your students. It's like a vocation, you can feel that you serve as an inspiration to your students and you should also be an example to them. Which I think I am not prepared to do. I got so many issues in life that I need to work on as well, and I am just brave enough to admit that I may not be a good example to my students. Would you like a naughty teacher for your kids? Hahaha. Well, if the time comes that I would really want to teach already, I know that I can do it with flying colors (i'm not bragging, right? LOL). I guess I'm just not ready for it now...

The woman in the middle was my mentor
when I had my second practice teaching.
I am so grateful that I had her 'coz she taught me a lot,
not just for being a teacher but with life as well.

LAZY SATURDAY

Saturday... It is usually the day wherein I unwind and go out with friends. Some of my friends are planning to have a swimming pool fun later tonight. It sure sound lots of fun and I am so tempted to go. But this were one of those Saturdays wherein you would just want to stay at home, chilling at your room, laying at the bed all night, munching junk foods while watching some movies until it makes you fell asleep. Not in the mood on going out tonight and just wanna stay at my cozy room. Have a happy weekend peeps!

i feel so lazy just as this cat is...

SWEET ESCAPE

If you will be given a choice to be in a place that you would love, where would it be? As for me, I would choose to stay in a beach. Everything was just so peaceful, seems that you don't have to worry anything when you're there. It's nice listening to the sound of waves, having tireless walks in the sand, loving the heat of the sun, watching the breath taking sunsets and hearing the deafening silent of the night. It's a place where things can be just plain and simple, away from the hustle and bustle of city life. Such a sweet escape...

I'M HUMMING...

it's my life
it's now or never
i ain't gonna live forever
i just wanna live while i'm alive

INDESCRIBABLE

There are some things that are just so hard to explain. But then I have this impression that 'it feels right' and that's it, end of discussion. Confused? Me as well. Haha! Most people have this notion that you should always have an answer, for them to believe it is the right thing you are doing. Guess I'm one of the few who don't believe that everything should be explained in details for it to be accepted by the majority. I am happy with what I have now and that is an enough reason for me to stay that way.

some of the best things are hard to describe

and what I'm feeling right now is indescribable...

FAILURE

• run before you walk •
• fly before you crawl •

" always attempt the impossible "


failure is your friend, embrace it!
if you don't fail, you will never learn...

NOT ALONE

when life gets hard
and I feel like giving up...
I just keep in mind that I am never alone
and I mean the world to someone...

that someone calls me MAMA...

COFFEE ADDICT

It's a Sunday morning. I am now having my second cup of coffee accompanied by a cigarette of course. Haha. I was just watching some music videos at my computer and decided to write on my blog about my fondness to COFFEE.

I am a coffee lover. My day is not complete without having coffee on my daily life. I drink my coffee with lots of sugar, I want it really sweet. And I just can't help to light a cigarette whenever I drink coffee. It is a must!

What's with coffee that I can never say NO to it? I can drink an instant coffee, brewed coffee, make it hot or cold, frappe or latte, name it. I can just start my day with a coffee and 2 sticks of cigarette and sometimes end my day with just another cup again. I drink it at anytime of the day. That's how I love coffee.

I am not addicted to coffee. Yes, I drink a lot and I need it to stabilize my brain and body for the day. But I'm not addicted. Haha!

PEACE • LOVE • COFFEE

DESTINATION

don't ask me where I'm going...

'coz I really don't know...

I'll just go wherever LIFE takes me...

EITHER BLACK OR RED

I always have my nails polished and there are just two colors for me, it's either black or any shades of red. Weird? It's been more than a year now that I always have those colors on my nails. Some friends are just asking...

why is it that you always have a black or red nail polish?

why not try something else?

how about nail art?

That is when I just realized it. I don't know. Whenever I had my nails done, I can't help but to choose black or red. There were also times that I want to try other colors but then I changed my mind at the last minute and ended with just either black or red. Haha. I can't say if that was weird, though some of my friends says it is. But I guess, those colors just looks good on my nails, that's why I always pick them. (or that's what I think so... lol...) Maybe I'll be trying other shades in some other days. I think purple would be nice or maybe I wanna try nail art? Hahaha. Let's see...

what I have now is red...

IMPERFECT

• IMPERFECT •

That's what you can call me.
I am 'ME' and I don't fit a certain category.
I'm just a girl who lives life day by day
and always manages to put a smile on her face.
Even if at certain day, I'm a complete mess!!!

FAVORITE MISTAKE

i know it's not right and i should stop...

but i just can't help it...

seems that 'you' are my favorite mistake...

:(

WHICH IS WHICH?

wanna be in love

or

don't wanna get hurt

NOW HUMMING...

when you're at the end of the road
and you lost all sense of control
and your thoughts have taken their toll
when your mind breaks the spirit of your soul...

IT'S WHAT I WANT

life is about chasing after the things you truly think are worth it, even if they don't happen.. i'd rather have nothing than know i settled for something i didn't want..

HAPPY 2010...

It's the first day of 2010.. I made no resolutions for the New Year..Because each day is a chance for me to get things right.. Everything is an ongoing process and a continuation of yesterday.. I never said goodbye to last year's events.. I'll make use of them to have a better knowledge for this year's upcoming chapters of my life.. Welcoming 2010 with a blast!!

TIRED OF BEING ALONE

i've got everything I need except a man.
and I'm not one of those women
who thinks a man is the answer to everything,
but I'm tired of being alone...

HOLIDAYS ARE COMING

Holiday season is now approaching and I still have a lot of things to accomplished. I was already invited to a lot of christmas parties and reunions and I still am not sure if I can make it to all those gatherings. I would really love to go in each and every party but my work just won 't let me. Got so much to do at work. Unless they would always adjust to when I am free, haha. What a selfish bitch!

I was already able to attend one christmas party (more to go, i hope). Parties we're always good. It makes you forget about certain things for a while and just want to have fun. We already had our christmas party at work and it was nice to just have fun with colleagues and not worry about work this time. The party was a blast. We came there around 9pm and we ended it at 5am. We we're all overwhelmed by alcohol. Lol.

this is caused by too much alcohol...

but nice shot, right? haha..

GETTING WORKAHOLIC?

For the past days, I had been busy at work. There were times that I only get to have 1 rest day for a week. This is not me. I was usually so lazy to go to work, hating overtimes, never want to stay at the office for a long time and would immediately want to go home right after work. But now is different. I am staying at the office for like 12 to 13 hours a day and taking overtime during my rest day for 6 hours.

I am beginning to be a workaholic. I am liking it though, maybe because I just don't have anything to do back home that's why I would rather stay at the office and burn my time there. Well, I am getting paid well, that's one good thing, and I do make sure I have fun and hang out with friends once in a while.

Holidays are soon approaching, and I still don't feel the spirit that much. Maybe because I am occupied with my job at this moment. But I am now sensing that this holiday season would make me a lot more busy coping up with old friends and relatives. Gotta get myself ready for that.